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| User: | kova (320711)
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| Name: | Christopher |
| Location: | Boxford, Massachusetts, United States |
| Birthdate: | 1987-03-29 |
| Bio: | "And then I remember pouring the gasoline first over the front seat and then over the back seat and just sprinkling it and of course over myself to a great extent, and I laid the jar then on the seat. Then I got the matches out, and even then no thoughts went through my head at all of the pain that it was going to entail, the misery, the hurt, any of that. It amazes me now that I really didn't think that the burns would really hurt, but none of that went through my head. It just felt good. It was the first time in fact that I felt at peace, that I wasn't hurting inside. At times before that it felt like I had just been stabbed and was bleeding and people were just watching me bleed, seeing the blood flow, and almost laughing, saying, ha, ha, that's your problem. And for once it seemed like I had taken care of my problems and no one had to watch my sores anymore and that my pain would just go away." - from a tape recorder recovered of an 18-year-old girl after her suicide attempt
A critical segment of our behavior is based on our fundamental biological needs--for oxygen, for food, for water, and for a livable temperature. But once these are met, our actions are motivated by our need to reduce inner tensions by satisfying an array of psychological needs. These include the intangible needs to achieve, to affiliate, to dominate, to avoid harm, to be autonomous, to be loved and succored, to understand what is going on--among others. We live our lives in pursuit of psychological needs. - Edwin S. Shneidman in his book The Suicidal Mind |
| Memories:: | 78 entries |
| Interests: | 150: absurdism, affection, aim, ambient, animation, antipsychotics, awkward silence, baldur's gate, beavis and butt-head, being overwhelmed, bipolar disorder, blizzard entertainment, boom boom satellites, carbon based lifeforms, catgirls, chicks, clamp, club music, clubs, collateral, colors, daydreaming, death poetry, demon hunter, descent, dieselboy, dilbert, directing, disgaea: hour of darkness, dj dieselboy, don't stop, dragon ball z, dreaming, dreams, driving, drum and bass, dying in your arms, ectovision.com, electronica, etna, evol intent, ex, falling in love, fantasy, filmmaking, flyleaf, freespace 2, freestylers, girls, happiness, hedonism, hentai, hideaki anno, hiroyuki sakai, hold me, holding hands, i hate myself, i love you, illumina, illuminea, imagery, interests, introverting, iron chef, isan, katsuhiko kobe, king missile, king missile iii, kisses, korn, koumei nakamura, lamictal, letters, lithium, loneliness, love, love hina, love letters, love poems, love poetry, lovesickness, lullatone, manic depression, marilyn manson, masaharu morimoto, masahiko kobe, massachusetts, melanie is demented, millionaire, mindless self indulgence, minoru arakawa, mogwai, my red hot car, nekos, nintendo revolution, nu-metal, old slipknot, orbital, oysterhead, photek, plan 9, please come home, poetry, primus, propellerheads, prozzak, ravana, remixes, ridge racer, romance, rubbing alcohol, samurai jack, sensations, seroquel, sex, shigeru miyamoto, simon & milo, skies, sleeping, solipsism, starflyer 59, stars, stephen chow, strawberries, stunt double, suicide, suicide notes, suicide poetry, takeshi kaga, talking, techno, the birthday massacre, the december sound, the freestylers, trance, tripping daisy, trivia, true love, tsunami bomb, valentine's day, valentines, warcraft, warmth, wish you were here, writing, wwtbam, yoko kanno, you're wonderful, yu-gi-oh!, yutake ishinabe |
| Schools: | Masconomet Regional High School - Topsfield, MA
Merrimack College - North Andover, MA
Northern Essex Community College - Haverhill, MA
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| Friends: |  | 46: | _drizzle_, a_repentance, aiko, alliemon, animatriculated, atsumi_chan, canadianyosheh, cataphract_40, chinatown_girl, drlainaphd, eievui, ex_robotica230, fieryphoenix, fluffbot, ghettofridge, godtehalmighty, grapetea, hatecrime, hdofu, hentai_slut, hindenburg_down, hopeunknown, hybridaxel, hyperstryfe, i_am_not_a_word, idfrod, imperator_spqr, jendevil, kova, lindsay2002, little_tinheart, lvcifer, nanaminako, nefariousvile, neoikeia, panik_attackk, pavement_pelt, paww, perceptive_mind, pinkchan, shinra_inc, skylites_ignite, syrk, thatmoment, vaporshi, withoutaname2be |  | 21: | aimsay_what, anicon, avatar_fans, bipolar_world, bipolarsucks, bipolarsurvival, creative_minds, cstrike, darkertide, disgaea, ironcheffan, king_missile, masconomet, moo3, seriouscw, suicidenotes_cm, suraganism, thechrisclub, vent, worldofwarcraft, zyprexa_addict |
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| Mutual Friends: | 32: _drizzle_, a_repentance, aiko, alliemon, atsumi_chan, canadianyosheh, cataphract_40, eievui, fieryphoenix, fluffbot, ghettofridge, godtehalmighty, grapetea, hatecrime, hdofu, hindenburg_down, hybridaxel, i_am_not_a_word, idfrod, imperator_spqr, jendevil, kova, lindsay2002, lvcifer, nanaminako, nefariousvile, pavement_pelt, shinra_inc, skylites_ignite, syrk, thatmoment, withoutaname2be |
| Account type: | Basic Account |
